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Saturday, December 16, 2006

Meaningful Life

15th December 2006

10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1...Merry Christmas!!! Yeah...one year again..Christmas for year 2006 is coming soon...10 more days to go....still remember last year christmas i celebrate with my group of friends, Sun, Ling, and Bee...and the venue is KLCC secret recipe...^o^...i really miss secret recipe now..my favourite cake!!!

Erm..this year christmas is a bit different for me...no more celebrate in Malaysia...and this year will celebrate in UK..the first time....currently here started to get cold everyday....yesterday was 3'C..super cold here now...

Currently very tired working here...sometimes when think back...i really dunno what i want...for what i work so hard here...nobody can see it..there's no meaning....sometimes really wanna give up...just thought like go back to malaysia....then i will have all my freedom back....but after think a while....i know i will regret once i step back to malaysia....i can't achieve what i want....but i dun understand what other people always say <....make ur life meaningful....then only u will live meaningfully...>...actually i do understand what this word mean to me...but i already try my best to make my life meaningful...now i only hope i achieve my dream as soon as possibe....


Christmas is coming...if u ask me what i wish for...all i want is to get back my freedom....i hate being tied or control...i just want to have freedom...sometimes i wonder what the meaning for "by your side"...i wonder is this word is just a empty promise or empty meaning? I found myself cannot find any meaning from this word...there no way for me to find out as well...i realise that day by day i started to forget what myself looking for me...i wonder everything began to change.....as i getting busy and busy day by day...people and environment around me started to change too....i began to hate every little things beside me....i kept asking myself actually what has happen to me?


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